A Spiritual Journey - The Awakening

I could see the power greater than myself in the trees, the flowers, the sky, the sun and the sea. This would take me on a journey of spiritual awakening. It was the beginning of a spiritual awakening and overcoming childhood fears that would carry me through my life.

The first step in my spiritual awakening was learning to trust food again.  Getting on an organised eating plan that would put my body back into balance and give it the nourishment that  it had been lacking over the years.  

When I felt like eating food that was not on my food plan was when it was most important to surrender to a power greater than myself.  I embraced this earnestly as I had had enough of the yoyo eating, and not feeling good.  After about three months, I noticed a change in how I felt physically.  My body was more in balance and I was eating good meals.  It was a blessing in itself.

On a spiritual level I was becoming calmer.  I was operating from a space of faith, faith in a power greater than me, that I would be helped. When I craved food that wasn't on my food plan, I prayed and I started to keep a journal.  I learnt that a trigger to eat was normally in relation to emotional circumstances that were out of my control.  Instead of eating I wrote about my feelings and I prayed.

Wonderful things started to happen in my meditation time.  I remember the very first awakening to self that I experienced.  It was in my dream time, it was in the morning and it was just before I woke up.  I had an image of me in my dream state of being in a field, at the beginning of the image, I was frozen in the field, like a statue.  All of a sudden, I noticed myself moving in the dream, it was like the statue of myself was coming to life.  It was a very powerful experience, it encouraged me to keep surrendering.  This is a daily practice, of course there are still daily challenges.  However the art of surrender has been an amazing tool that sustains me.

My emotions were beginning to thaw and I was beginning to get in touch with the essence of myself.  It was an amazing experience, getting in touch with me.  The art of surrender. 

The process of journal writing was also very cathartic as well.  When I felt overwhelmed or not sure of a situation, my journal became my friend.  I gave it a name.  Frank, as I was being frank with myself.

On a spiritual journey it is also important to be honest with yourself and others, this allows the shadow areas inside of us all to be brought into the light.  What is hidden in the dark needs to brought into the light.  The experiences, emotions, thoughts and feeling that we hide from ourselves are the ones that hold us back.  Bringing these into the light removes the shadows.  This is all part of our ascension.

I began reading books on personal development, they also added other dimensions to the journey that I had commenced. Honesty is a funny thing.  Not everyone is comfortable with it.  There is more to this world than just the physical.  Now more than ever with Covid-19 it is important for us all to be able to mentally, emotionally, physically and spiritually be able to sustain ourselves.  The journey to spiritual awakening is an amazing one.

The first book that I ever read on this journey was "You Can Heal Your Life", by Louise Hay.  Such an inspiration.